Grief and disbelief

Life is a flow of energy. We want to keep the energy flowing and all of a sudden things happen which reverse the flow of energy or stop the flow of energy. It is hard to believe for a person who is living in his comfort zone. All of a sudden one is out of their comfort zone.
Wondering how can this happen to me?
It cannot be true!
I cannot stand it.
I wish it could reverse.
Who do I blame it on?
I am all done. I can not ever recover from it etc.
Grief is caused by losing a relationship. When you loose your loved one you are lost.